I've lost 1 kilo in the last 24 hours.
Today is very similar to the end of the first stage in childbirth. (These stages can be summed up as (1)Labour (2)Push (3)Cut the cord.)
I practiced Bradley methods to get through child birth the natural way with my 2 boys. And in that book just before you make the big PUSH, as contractions are closely apart from one another and as the pain spikes up into your brain - you suddenly doubt if you can REALLY (x100) get through the whole naturelle process without any medical intervention.
And yes - I am in DOUBT right now!
I want to give up this whole detox diet. It's crazy! It's masochistic in nature! It's making me so weak and sleepy accompanied by headaches.
This afternoon, i fell for the temptation. The fruit basket sitting just behind my desk, didn't help! Plus the flavourful aroma of my workmates' lunches was beckoning my palates to run to the nearest gourmet takeaway. What a pity! I really did feel sorry for myself that I grabbed a banana and chowed it quickly!
After an hour, I was vomiting heavily. I kept stepping out of the office either to take some power nap in the car or just walk for some fresh air. It helped but I was already too weak from vomiting.
I dreaded to take even a sip of this herbal drink.
Tonight I declared that I'm giving up detoxifying my body any further. I think it's best to start it on a Friday. Then you have Saturday and Sunday to get through the "healing crises". Then, by Monday, you're body is more or less used to having no solids at all.
I guess the quest isn't really over yet. I just need to find a weekend that I wouldn't have to do my groceries or wouldn't have to go to an eating binge party. After all, detoxification of the body should really be done twice a year.
I'm now making my way to "breaking my fast".
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